2:30 AM
Room 219 Thomas Hall
I can’t seem to stop smiling. I haven’t gotten much done today other than cooking, cleaning, and making phone calls. Judging by the responses I’ve gotten, it seems like I was the only one who didn’t think this thing was certain from the start.
I opened my mailbox about twelve hours ago and saw the letter from IIE. I ripped open the envelope before I even made it up the stairs. I gave in and opened it. I screamed a little I think. The next hour was a blur of phone calls and baking brownies, just to give my hands something to do. Besides, chocolate makes for a far better celebration than alcohol. I remember trying to explain the feeling to my brother—that my mind felt like it was going a mile a minute but wasn’t getting anywhere.
I needed to do something with all the energy. I started hauling things I had packed up out to the car. 3 weeks from today I move out and that day can’t come soon enough. I’m ready to be out of here. After knocking over the empty bookcase (again) I hauled it out to the curb. The rest of the evening passed in a blur of good food, a couple of friends, and phone calls.
I’m sitting here scrolling through my mental to-do list, still trying to really let this sink in.
Barring crazy misfortune…I’m going to Taiwan. The butterflies are still thundering away, but I feel a sense of relief.
For months I’ve been saying I want to fast forward the next six months, figuring it must be better there and then than here and now, but not knowing where there was. Now I know. Six months from now I’m going to be in Taiwan. I know it. I feel better. There are lots of unknowns left, but that’s one less at least.
Erin 欧依琳
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